First let me say:
"The power that is in me is greater than the power in my addiction; my addiction will not keep me from my destiny, because I WILL defeat it!"
This is what I need to tell myself every day, not just for my nicotine addiction but for all of my addictions. I need to have faith in myself and my strength, and know I will overcome anything if I do not give up. I have a habit of being human and making mistakes. I fall to temptation and then punish myself by telling myself that I am a failure and I cannot succeed, therefore I don’t.
This self defeating attitude is what gives addiction the power it has over us. Since I quit smoking I have had two slips, however they were just only one cigarette each time and the last time the cigarette tasted nasty, therefore I did not enjoy it. Instead of putting myself down, for giving into temptation and being weak for a brief moment, I focused on the fact that I now did not enjoy the taste of that last cigarette and that I did not feel as if I was missing anything.
Your words have incredible power. In fact, when you change your words, you change your life. Negative words, bring negative things ... loving and hopeful words will bring positive things ... words of faith bring God into your heart, soul and life. I decided to use positive words instead of negative. Therefore I will no longer be saying "I can’t" and changing it to "I can". I will think, speak, and act positive in order to not overcome my addiction but to have a positive life.
Now with all that said, let me tell you how I came to this revolution of thinking positive. This last week my urges to smoke have seemed to really increase compared to other weeks. Every day, every hour, every minute this week, I have had cigarettes on my mind. I didn’t know why, and I didn’t know how to stop these thoughts. It was driving me crazy. I had all I could do, not to break and buy a pack of cigarettes. Then I was talking to a friend and he offered me a cigarette and asked if I was still smoking ... I lied and said yes and took that cigarette (this being the one that tasted nasty). I felt guilty and ashamed. Not only did I lie, but I lied for my addiction.
Well, I sat at home later that night and watched Joel Osteen. I watch him and realized I was not bad for making this mistake and that I had the power in me to pick up and beat my addiction. I started to think as to why this week seemed so much harder than the previous 6 weeks, and I discovered the answer and now have my solution. This is my first week back to school. Classes are starting off very intense and my anxiety levels are at an all time high. I don’t have my prescriptions, and I use to smoke to replace the medication. Now I have neither and I was having a hard time facing my anxiety. Having this revelation will allow me to address not only my anxiety, but the urge to give in to my addiction as well. I am feeling strong, powerful and positive. This journey maybe far from over, but I am learning every step of the way, and I know I see the end of this path way soon. ;)
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